Yes I Know

Your right Akeg whoever you may be. I dun deserve anyone cause of the amount of pain i've caused. I will never feel that kind of pain they feel and thus can never understand. But that does not mean that i dun feel anything as well. That does not mean that i take joy in seeing them hurting cause of me. Do you seriously think that i had done that intentionally? I seriously hope you did not think so. If your my personal friend i hope you would come and tell me your views. I would guess that your not my personal or close friend so please just say what you wish but do not call me a "bastard". Do you know me well like my parents do? Did you give birth to me? I dun think so. Your totally right that i dun deserve anyone and i accept your comment cause i believe that i dun deserve such a good girl that i let go. But to call me "bastard"? Thats just going too far. I admit to the wrong things i've done and the wrong decisions that i've made to cause people pain. But i certainly feel that i do not deserve to be called a "bastard" and defintitely not by someone who do not know me well. No matter what i say or do will make you take back your words that i know. I just wanna write this in the hope that you will read it and think about it. Right now i know that i've screwed up this phase of my life in terms of relationship and i really do regret the things i've done. I just wanna try and move on to my next phase and live the way i wish to. To akeg, i really know that i have really done something very bad but i still hope you would reconsider on your decision to call me a "bastard". Call me an idiot call me a fool call me stupid but please dun call me a "bastard", cause whatever i've done was all wrong decisions and not actions aimed at hurting anyone deliberately.